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Everything Changed When...

For so long I would try and chase God and earn my way to His approval.


I would beg, plead and demand, "What is my purpose, what is my calling, what am I supposed to be doing? What do you want from me???"


After years of feeling like a failure over and over and over again and constantly feeling judged, unworthy, frustrated and angry I came across an understanding that I had never considered before.


And that was, all this time I was looking at God as a Resource:


  • A Resource for Forgiveness (gave me the Excuse to do whatever I wanted)
  • A Resource for Strength (only to pick me back up when I was at the bottom and failed again)
  • A Resource for Prosperity (I mean, doesn't God want me happy)
  • A Resource for Purpose (My biggest lie, I'm doing Gods work... #cringe๐Ÿ˜–)

Everything changed when I stopped looking to God as a Resource and started to grow a true Relationship with Him.


By developing a Relationship (which I work on everyday and still struggle with btw) with Him I am better at receiving, recognizing and understanding His voice.


You see, there were so many times in my life that I thought what I would see and hear God speaking to me was merely a coincidence.


I would see the same message throughout the day and think, "Deja Vu" but now I understand that it's truly confirmations of His desires and purpose for me.


It's kind of like when you're buying a new car and now all you see is that same make and model, even your color everywhere you look.


I can now recognize God in full color versus black and white... And that's awesome ๐Ÿ™Œ


I truly believe God does want what's best for me but until I really understood the idea that what He wants the most is a Relationship with me, I continued to struggle with His voice and message.


Today I'm much better at listening and understanding Him and that encourages me, emboldens me, and empowers me to actually do His work.


If you're reading this and are struggling with God's Purpose for you I would encourage you to ask yourself if you're seeking a relationship with God or trying to use Him as a resource.


Let me know if this serves you, helps you or gives you hope in any way.


I appreciate and love you.




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